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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

todae exam was ok not tt easy nor difficult i think shld be ok although not a sure A
i am in love with the song the piano juz rocks piano wif drums wad can u expect
askin jeremy to teach me to play hope i made it after my exams ....

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//1/31/2007 09:02:00 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
How to save a life

finally tolmo is exams liao somehow i feel calmer than previous sem i hav slog hope to reap wad i sow sian miss singapore vs thailand tolmo fuk sia i got cb cem to study then gonna miss the match i readin Men health then follow the baisc commando workout siao man do part of it my body achin like hell nvm got plenty time to train after exam still thinkin abt how i gonna get past my exam and upcoming match so sian this few days readin some fuk up chemical
nevertheless i went to listen to some great music and jiaowei at msn rock on live for the moment
all the best ppl !!!!!!

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//1/30/2007 10:04:00 AM

Monday, January 29, 2007
Nobody Noes my Name

update a video still a blog noob somehow cannot show the whole video anyway enjoy the song boston by augustana the rythym of the song damn zai la piano guitar and drum love it especially the lyrics !!!!

the bleeding never stops
//1/29/2007 11:36:00 AM

Sunday, January 28, 2007
There is a tiger behind every lion

this few days juz rock first on sat i study and chiong at home play CM zai i confident abt itm ms toh i dun wanna to fail u like my sec sch bio teacher so i try my very best for itm then i went to meet khair riduan erwin and sulaiman go watch singapore vs malaysia lol it was fun

sign of the lion roar!!!!

it was damn nice lor the atmosphere whole kallang stdium juz rock on when the stompin of the feets singaporeans are all so high tt is it the nation spirit we all shoutin oike hell !!!!!!!!

i spot a thing singaporeans quite vulgular malaysian score all the motherfuckers cb knn all come out my god there are lots of young kids man then when we score the stadium were all wild screaming yeah!!!!!then malaysian start to play time wastin then we all start the beep beep thing (11 claps rythum )dunno how to spell then we all shout BUTO= malay dickhead lol

everyone was shoutin their heads but young kids r there a bad influence then came the penalty damn exciting la yeah lion win it nice la the whole crowd went wild keep on screaming !!!!!!!

i went home empty stomach abt 12+ thenr each home then went to slp

todae i went studying with charlotte pat hero and siewling we went to eat first then went to clementi stadium lol good envirnoment reali no joke it brings my memories back the left corner is when i always fall in durin my sec sch sports day kana tekan there when i sec 2 he nxt day is camp then the ncos fuk us up tekan us in public and say tolmo will even be more hell

haiz all this stuffs wad can i do swallow it down but i will nv forget wad i did wif my 02 brothers

then we study study till halfway i pat and hero went to jiaowei 1 corner then the girls jiaowei among themselves too pat and hero keep on askin me silly qns lol tt is jiao

todae somehow is diff man many thoughts went thru my mind dunno y

i been studyin and relacin i somehow tot wad happen to me i noe since my grandma deah durin the funeral i find out how to study itm still remember 3rd day then i went home after rwp test sian tt test screw up then i went to study itm fuk it sia i feel i am USELESS my family member below helpin then i at upstair muggin wtf sia !!!!!! i amm juz hopeless it is then i made up my mind fuk it i study liao forget it is in my mind so i juz hack and go down help nxt day i get 33.5 not bad u noe y my stupid habit of zhi jie lai cause my 5 marks aiya hack i the end i top the last test usin the same method i pay a great price to noe this i call this CONFIDENENCE it will come when u need it somehow another of my unusal happen welcome to the black parade song it is help me alot every great stubmle in my life i listen to it we can do no shit man and juz carry on !!!!carryin on all the way todae is juz the day

i somehow look tired but the zest of fire in my heart finally burning brightly 2 major events exams and navel 10 match i been pushin myself tellin myself u may think i am crazy somehow i think it works i wan to be rdy come back from my fallin down i was a loser !!! and i wan to go out there make use of my second chance unleash it there r things i can do so i am me and no 1 can change it my own style !!!!!!! i thinkk my mum noe me best i always play when they r back from work she noes it i studyin in the afternoon liao always playin for her to see dunno y i juz like it this way i dun wan ppl to noe wad i am doin or noe me maybe i am weird watever man i juz wan a happy life like now things isss great for me goin there to fight it all out

my match i am noob in rugby but i will make it somehow the star players or wad fuk it man i will run yr ass now is like exams somwhow i noe i be fine in it khair and ming most prob comin to DCP lol i dunno wan psyco them dun go for FO camp

dunno y i juz feels this way who reali noe me i noe 1 thing is for sure my body used to be like a puddle of sad all spilt out scatter but the spirit within my body it is back like DNA complantary ends sticky end form joinin back maybe i am juz a dumb fool having all this werid feeling

1 thing is for sure it feels good to recover from a shock roar man !!!!!!! i will make it some how with a smile in the way !!!!

Here I go so dishonestly

Leave a note for you my only one

And I know you can see right through meS

o let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one

the bleeding never stops
//1/28/2007 09:25:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007
WOOO!!!!!!!!!!

O-o-o can u hear me screaming !!!!!! pure power todae excel end le my grp did well
tt is not the thing to celebrate i got a confirmation todae playin in the navel 10s team whoo!!!!!
damn happy man todae is juz so on form in liao zai la my 1st competive match against navel ppl
haha damn song i gonna train veri hard even it is my exams nth is worth losing especially the chance to make it rite i will be zai 1 haha chiong liao flyin to ankle
wat can i say nowlife is juz GREAT!!!!!!!!!

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//1/25/2007 09:57:00 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

i couldn't tell u y this is happening fuk man 2 weeks see 2 times doctor red eye now leg kana sting by dunno wad swollen now see doc for minor case haiz wtf is happenin to my body
todae class was slack rwp i kana 32% think not bad liao i didn't put in alot effort aiya fuk it i dun care anyway my only concern is itm todae 05 and the girls all skip ms toh went thru the paper not bad the 9 chtps i read i know it somehow so happy hope this time i give myself a real chance for bio by exams i will be fukkin rdy for itm the rest dun care tt much since he day my grandma die i screw up for itm and rwp test but i find the unquie power to learn itm think is confident bah read liao then fuk it when the time u u will noe tt is my theory i try it out for last few testes not
i got a dream and i muz learn to protect it attemptin the impossible i ve been a loser since young dunno anything flunk all my exams O was my reali 1st achievement, my humanities was a joke althoguh i get A i did it the wrong way without my heart i excel coz i wan beat the sob who look down on my class with this i am a failure now i get my mind set in the correct way watever i do i will nv ever forget wheere the heart is in watever i do exams r not everything i think i am reali growin up liao no kiddin let me eat some devil fruit i wan do something big
we boys discussin todae when chalet come we will be doin the Unforgiven event the ultimate 06 stunt show Main event Summer BOyz vs Sunshine Brothers wif special guest ref Jona and commentaor Derreck lol we r crazy maybe tt reali bond us together the jioaoness
who reali understand me man i always look so cui lol maybe i wan to be loook tt way not the cruical time i will still a dead ice nevertheless i think i been open up alot in my poly life
quite inspire by gridiron gang and the channel 8 7pm show use my sec sch
now i reali noe my sch creed as many hands build a sch so many hearts make a sch maybe tt is true heart is all tt u need fuk it the results or watever heart will enable us to survive in this world haha maybe i am mad liao need to do stunts liao the show lol see me climb sch wall bah ..

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//1/24/2007 11:43:00 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

todae damn enjoy fun and learn things
morning went to gym reali lack in gym training i will trainer harder after exams
come back home finish my rwp then go pick patrick up come my hse do pbl
the highlight lol went to watch gridiron gang wif jona pat hero and freak not bad the show reali inspire me coz i play a similar sport it reali take a lot of curage to play american football even more than rugby the show is funny and inspring espically the water boy similar to skinny in step up we all say resemble to freak coz of the size lol show was reali nice be a winner be a MUSTANG after tt we went to feast jiao wei juz fun
maybe tt is last part i need to finish exams off?? dunno la i see wat i can do
sat dunno wan go see singapore vs malaysia gonna study liao no time to lose
watever it is shut up and smile i noe i wil somehow make it ...........

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//1/23/2007 11:48:00 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

todae is juz great i throw away all the depress feelin i hav yesterdae mood was rite energy back
todae finish off itm 9 chpts all the test chpts maybe i shld aim AD bah dunno le i feel hungry for it my grandma and mum keep on askin me abt my sch life all this or i shld say love life god give me a break ... at least they care maybe i feel tt studyin to see 1 smile is the best thing it make me reali fight for it rwp onli 70% for me is a hard job coz i sux at EL nvm juz give it a shot bah
learn to do flyin push up from my bro veri easy injury prone lol go train liao be the nxt oxygen tank i reali need to get in team no kiddin if 1000 tackles a day make a perfect tackle i gonna do it after exams juz gal tt all is back juz finish watchin man u and arsenal sian man u lost 2-1 in lat 8 mins haiz nvm bah hope they win it this yr bah still a red devil supporter
1 last thing tolmo is the last cem class maybe i am droppin at yr 2 it is so late i am still bloggin tolmo will be a better day than todae cannot wait for tue gridiron gang !!!!!!

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//1/22/2007 02:21:00 AM

Saturday, January 20, 2007
bad day !!!

everything juz sux todae i dunno wtf happen to me totally saded
mood was not there i dun feel like doin anything dunno y not even playin games something is reali wrong todae haiz maybe i make some big mistakes bah dun wan to think tt much
learning to take a step back hopefully all things turn well tolmo bah 1 thing in my head wake up wif a smile and make tolmo a wonderful day bah ................
at the moment chelsea is losing GLory Glory mAn Utd

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing
"Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

today is probaly the most FUCK UP day of my life my fighting spirit was like kana frozen and hibernating tok to jona and pat still cannot untie it i was thinkin so wad i did well for my testes i wasn;t happy at all last sem i screw it up in test but i was happy then all this it is juz wrong make me wanna think is studyin worth it i seek for things much more than results
i dunno man tolmo i will make the day a good .....

the bleeding never stops
//1/20/2007 10:28:00 PM

EPL is the main highlight this weekend in sg 4 top guns fightin it out Liverpool vs Chelsea & Arsenal vs Man utd damn eciting la juz hope dun reali care abt 1st match juz wan man u to win
Ronaldo do some magic plz rooney fire up bah tolmo will be the game of the season
my com is finally on its way think will get it after exams 3 more weeks i gonna play like hell
goal is wad we been working for i will always fight on for u
time to unleash Gear 2.................

the bleeding never stops
//1/20/2007 04:38:00 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

finally test is over excel sure die liao the rest still ok finally no zhi jie lai in my core last tests
for the 1st time my core last test all improving gradient still study as per normal juz tt i think i a little more hardworking this sem watever man i juz wanna finish off the exam s
cannot wait for my rugby game naval 10s in feb i think i got high chance to go first team my last training was a good juz need to do more weights and running 2 last thing rwp and excel

the bleeding never stops
//1/19/2007 06:42:00 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

finally eye almost recover tolmo ioc test and excel todae juz study and study hope to get through tolmo veri fast i wan to play ......................................... wtf man todae dunno wad dream i hav some1 keep tellin me ioc stuffs i was so pissed i woke up at 5+ sch is juz fun we discover a great secret todae witness by me jona and pat, itm finally made it will chiong hard for itm exam i think tt will be my most confident module bahwatever izzit hope tolmo will do well

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//1/17/2007 06:33:00 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Opening of the 3rd eye

2 days of red eye funny thing is onli 1 sided kinda of weird went to doc todae he say cannot be sore eye 1 day le wan spread also spread le i feel no pain itch or anything juz red
maybe my 3rd eye is being open dunno sia i able to feel alot this 2 days more calmer can do things better dunno y this is happenin or god is sendin me a msg
GEMS is over tue is a free day for me test todae think cant get A bah hope i can smell my 1st poly A pat jona freak joseph hero and me went to lau pat sa to feast kinda of funny we jiao all the way the place bring back memories durin flag day they went there to eat even remember where they sit haha after last paper we will be goin back there again time fly so fast
we r all discussin 1st day who meet who tok abt wad this things la
cannot forget tt time derreck pat and hero call me after 1 of my rugby training say got something damn urgent to ask me after tt i chiong back home find out they ask me who i like..... i was like wth i reali rush back home tt nite lol how joke can this be we even remember our 1st conversation with one another we went to city hall after tt i went to gramophone to get my cd Angel and Airwaves listen abit onli still not bad got blink 182 the flavour
my specs and music juz help me get through todae think i am recoverin soon but eye still a bit red
I wanna have the same last dream again, the one where I wake up and I'm alive. Just as the four walls close me within, my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight. I'm the first to know, my dearest friends, even if your hope has burned with time, anything that's dead shall be re-grown, and your vicious pain, your warning sign, you will be fine.

the bleeding never stops
//1/16/2007 09:40:00 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007
Where is my new Computer

starhub dunno wat to say sia delay my new desktop so long liao todae went down personally to vivo customer serivce to ask damn sian no soccer again this week weather is bad i hate rain
stud ioc todae need more time to grasp it of course need jona and pat to teach me my last test own it to them somehow tue 1 last gems test let me finish them job i gonna burn the notes if any of u need it tell me quick gems like useless go there listen teacher tok cock this tue same thing
sittin position jona me pat and homan hope we can easily secured our first A.
tolmo got cem many have drop latest is pat think hero will drop too i dun think i will drop by this sem this situation same as bio when i in sec 4 i fail bio but i nv drop coz i nv give myself a chance so itm i decided y not give myself another chance see if i give it a bit push most importantly i wan see my bio teacher happy face still canot remember sec 4 tt time she pregant then so angry wif our end of yr results coz no 1 care same like cem i think i give it a try see how bah
u cannot make something out of nothing i will seek new ways and learn the art of human somehow i believe.....

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//1/14/2007 04:58:00 PM

Saturday, January 13, 2007
WOOO IDEAS OVER!!!!!

reali feels good ideas is finally over juz gald mr ho like our idea presentation was ok but
still can be better one nvm over le juz wanna thnks all my grp members espically pat for all their hardwork. kind of disappoint wif myself i no long hold tt special stength the night before i waas damn tired and sick fuk man y i cannot carry on doin the ppt then i skip ioc
in the past camp when i was a PS 1 hr of slp is enough 1 day eat 1 meal enough dunno y i cannot do tt again maybe the resposnsiblity wasn't great enough anyway juz gald all tt is finish for good

many wear formal my grp wear semi kinda werid but i like it better than formal
i dun care much abt the outcome juz happy wif my grp and doin the thing

todae went to rest whole day juz play games and watch tv

nxt weeks got gems test last 1 also like itm i try get full bah nth is immposible in this world

i once feel the unique power of mankind when i was in sec 2 totally inspire to do things

i dunno how to explain tt thing juz too amazing hope i will find it before exams

i think tt speical power is brotherhood but durin the time we train hard together

the love inside the strength of heart is another 1 maybe i will nv find it bah .......

fma movie not bad finally got time to watch it thnks to zy still yet to settle my starhub stuff sian diao cannot wait for gridion gang to come out i reali think it will inspire me much like the longest yard if u hav not catch tt go catch it is zai ............

1 last thing to do before this week end get some cds :) delay too long liao till then ....

the bleeding never stops
//1/13/2007 10:43:00 PM

Friday, January 12, 2007

woo!!!! this hectic week gonna end soon 2 test gone left 2 more nxt week
cppb a bit screw liao itm got chance full bah i dun fukkin care the result i noe 1 thing
tt special thing is back i can feel it when i take tests i feel so alive this few days although i am damn tired closer to the thing i hav been seekin tolmo 1 last item of the week presentation for BP i am damn tired tolmo gonna wake up early write script last idea presentation i dun wan screw it up think i pray hard can le i got tt potential to present well ............
well cannot wait for the weekends to come i gonna play some sport refresh myself a bit
before i start to study like a crazy guy
another to worry the unit like in deep shit ncos dun like some clts i reali scare they rebel not a gd image man i will find time to go down help even durin exams haiz hoepfully bah

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//1/12/2007 12:03:00 AM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

went to gems todae same thing i and pat took the last corner sits and jiao all the way
tokkin abt all the people in the class we play too much in gems but still can get gd result maybe this gems gd easy to score think i will get my first Poly A from this module last test nxt week
tolmo is cppb went to do stunts todae nv reali touch much went back gess interview sec 1
dunno wat to say play some Iq games some attidue quite xia lan annual camp sure they die liao
hope more sec 1 come for nxt training abt evening time then i left went home chiong my ideas ppt finally it is 910 then i start didn't reali care much abt cppb i put it all liao tryin to do more stunts liao nvm cppb i not much confident itm fuk it i muz kick my zhi jie lai habit screw me so many times nvm i am all rdy to unleash my adventure hav fun and enjoy lol
my grandpa drem abt my grandma dunno sia he still cannot get over her death i reali dunno wat to do sia juz salute him a faithful lover
craving for rugby and soccer sian think i reali shrinkin liao need to train give me a ball watever rugby ball or soccer ball need to whack it out .........................

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//1/09/2007 09:27:00 PM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

damn busy this week thur got outing at sentosa not bad think better than class outing than last time after tt watch deathnote 2 hmm it didn't impress me much watever after movie went to food republic for dinner wa the price also veri nice .....................
fri finally gess cca orientation i was so tired i got up at 7 go sch help them abt 830
the display room hai dunno wat to say nth on but in the end thnks to clts and ncos we still did it
mock attack was reali not bad didn't expect it to improve so much but fuck 1 thing the speaker
i think this time the song effect is reali gd however the speaker broke down we still carry on
overall not bad we got a list of 88 sec 1 names lol muz praise the psyco team leader iskander
he go tell sec 1 PM lee is a ex gess ncc cadets how jiao can he get man salute man
while this yr plannin was not tt gd however we still get results we wan maybe becoz of real M-16 dunno la i think plannin impt as something u will learn things rather than juz gettin results
2 consectutive days os sun burn i as red like a lobster
Sat went to mr ho hse nice to noe a thing mr ho is a ex-gessian lol didn't ecpect to be my senior
we go therre eat hav fun and discuss abt ideas after tt went to watch blood diamond basically almost all the boys went a meaningful show tt is wad i lookin for nxt meaningful show coming up i think is gridion gang not so sure when i be sure to catch it
hmm now i noe y my bro say mr ho is a gd teacher not the things he provide but the teachin attitude and passion unlike our ioc teacher ..........
tolmo finally start sch le fuck man i think i play too much didn't reali study for any tests
ideas do till sian fri sat piah till 1 fukkin tired tolmo bah 1 day 3 core modules i see wat i can do
haiz..... maybe this time reali die liao i see wad i can do bah
juz reali happy i learn much from this holiday in terms of human principle
i am growin up to be a better man tt is for sure so juz fuk care the test result i juz make the process a good 1 ........................
oh shit still haven buy some cds wa sian diao i got 4 this holiday u2, panic! at the disco, killer and snow patrol haiz stil got many nvm i need music to paint my life after this test week bah think i go get angel and airwaves

the bleeding never stops
//1/07/2007 08:50:00 PM